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1/26/2026 I’ve been trying to do this one for –ever – it seems and I just can’t let it go. “IT” what is it? “IT” being all the things that keep me from moving forward the way I want to, but I don’t mean fame and fortune, I mean without the stress, confusion and the pain my mind seems to always have buzzing, buzzing forever buzzing. The moments of clarity don’t stick. It’s not like a warm blanket you can always have around you it slips off on its own and you always have to

1/21/26 Sometimes I become what my daughter calls unnecessarily obsessive about my grandchildren’s – girls – safety. I worry that some male will spoil their youth and send them into womanhood with the fears of male domination, savagery, abuse. I know it is because I have never gotten over my own experiences with these things and carry the scars, physical, mental and psychological. These do not leave. These behaviors cripple you and affect every relationship, action, every sle

1/16/26 SINKING IN! It’s over! The holiday is past and now it sinks in---the hourly, daily, monthly, yearly task of making my life work! How do I move forward – as if I have a choice – or should it be ---- in what capacity do I move forward? And what color will my days be and what mood will my months have and what music will swirl in my head as I take each step thru another series of moments in what is called “ my life ”. Should I make a list, date it, make appoints to ful

1/11/2026 I started getting emails in my inbox from a company called Medium. At first I ignored them—there are so many emails sent to your box that it becomes unpleasant. However, I finally opened one, then another, and another, and discovered that they were written by a “bundle” of young people who hadn’t grown up as yet. It was interesting to hear their points of view and to realize that it wasn’t much different from what we women had as young women. And yet, I sensed a ki

1/3/2026 I have never lived under a dictatorship. I have read about countries where people live this way. I have had friends who lived under such governments and spoke about what it felt like. I have read histories of the many, many situations like this. But I have never experienced even the slightest shred of that kind of life. As the new year begins, I face the fact that I am now living under a government that is a dictatorship. I watch as the rights my family traveled here

12/31/2025 My friends told me about using AI. They swore it was very helpful for them. They ranted and raved, and I decided, OK, I’ll see what this is all about. Now first I must tell you, I am a hands-on person—always have been. I used technology as it developed, but I never felt safe, in control, or sold on it. I learned to edit film on a Moviola with Mimi Arsham as my teacher at the School of Visual Arts in the seventies. I loved it. I loved the Moviola. I loved Mimi Arsha

12/27/25 – It is the day before my birthday. I was born on December 28, the day of the Holy Innocents, or that is what it is called in the Christian religion. It is the day King Herod sent out his soldiers to knock on every door and find any newborn child in every house and behead that child. Why? Because he was told by three wise men that a child had been born who would be King. King of the Jews. The true King of the Jews. A King that would rule forever and never be removabl